Saturday, July 2, 2016

Assalamualaikum....

Tahun ni dah masuk 2 tahun beraya tanpa ayah....
Pagi raya, dah tak boleh salam tangan ayah...
Pegang dan cium tangan ayah...
Mintak ampun atas segala dosa...

Dulu tak pernah nak faham...
Macam mana perasaan bila orang yang kita sayang pergi tinggalkan...
Sebab Adik hanya pikir...
Adik akan bersama Mak dan Ayah selama-lamanya...

Terasa dunia macam nak runtuh...
Bila dapat panggilan Mak...
Mak nangis...

Adik tak tahu macam mana Adik boleh bawak kereta dari Kuala Lumpur sampai rumah...
Yang Adik sedar...
Bila sampai depan rumah, orang dah ramai...
Adik rebah atas riba Mak...
Mak kata Adik kena Redha...

Adik teman Ayah pergi masjid buat kali terakhir...
Lepas selesai semua...
Abang keluar masjid...
Dia cakap ni masa Ayah....
"Kita kat dunia ni tak lama, macam tunggu bas... ni masa Ayah pi dulu... nanti masa kita pulak"

Waktu tu Adik masih tak boleh terima...
Kenapa ayah kena pergi dulu...

Tapi inilah ketentuan...
Adik kena terima....
Adik masih ada Mak...
Adik masih ada Abang, Kak Na, Kak Da & Kak Ella...

.....Semoga Ayah tenang di sana.....


(gambar raya terakhir... rindu ayah)


Monday, June 13, 2016

Assalamualaikum....


13 June 1990 - 13 June 2016
Genap 26 tahun

Terima kasih MAK
Terima kasih AYAH

Saturday, May 7, 2016


못다핀 꽃 한송이-Forgotten Flower


(video: from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aTgIu9S6zo)

언제 가셨는데 안 오시나 ....한잎 두~고 가신 님아 
You, who left a leaf behind, left a long time ago, when will you come back?

가지위에 눈물 적셔놓고.....이는 바람소리 남겨놓고 
With tears on the branch and left a wind sound

앙상한 가지~위에....그 잎새는 한~잎 
One leaf on the thin branch

달빛마저~ 구름에 가려.....외로움만 더해가네 
Even the moonlight is covered by the clouds and adds on the loneliness

밤새 새 소리에 지쳐버린....한잎 마~저 떨어지려나 
Will the one leaf, exhausted by the bird chirping all night, fall?

먼 곳에 계셨어도 피우리라 ....
It will still bloom even if you’re far away

못다핀 꽃 한송이 피우리라
The unblown flower will bloom


(lyric: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aTgIu9S6zo)
(translation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EQ_KXLC8PqQ)

Monday, May 2, 2016


Salam...

I wish that i still can greet you as usually....
and hugs you like the last time i hug you at hospital...

1 year passed already....
 and i still wish you are still with us...
cause many things that i regret...
things that i cant do for you...

yesterday we did tahlil and bacaan yasin for you...
but i cant hold my tears...
as if i lost you yesterday...

DAD i really, really miss you...
i cant tell Mom cause i know how she loves and missed you more...
i cant tell others cause they also having their own problems and life...

i wish i can see your smile again...
hear your voice...
...........................



Sunday, April 17, 2016

Its hurt when you suddently stop talking... and i know you are crying... silently...

Monday, March 14, 2016




.....Salam.....

Rindu...
Rindu sangat-sangat...
Senyuman, teguran, nasihat....
AYAH



Tuesday, January 5, 2016



...HATI ...LIDAH...HATI...


Pabila diberi kesenangan aku lena dibuai kealpaan
Aku hanyut dibawa arus duniawi
Aku leka dengan kesibukkan kota, kerja dan kemewahan

TAPI
Pabila ditarik balik nikmat kasih sayang, aku hilang arah tuju
Pabila ditarik ketenangan, aku lelah dan lemas dengan tekanan dunia
Pabila diuji aku melatah dan terus rebah

Mungkin aku EGO
Mungkin aku SOMBONG
Mungkin aku JAHIL

.......................................................................................................................................

YA ALLAH
Aku Redha
Redha dengan ujian ALLAH

YA ALLAH
Aku Redha
Jika ini ketentuan yang telah ditetapkan

YA ALLAH
Aku Redha
Redha dengan pemergian ayah


Friday, January 1, 2016



Tirai 2015 berlabuh akhirnya
penuh dengan air mata
tatkala usia meniti dewasa

perginya orang yang paling aku sayang
hilang pergi tiada bayang
semua tinggal kenangan

Hati masih terluka
Air mata masih mengalir jua
tapi aku kuatkan hati demi dia

2016 bertemu kita
semoga sabar dan tabah sentiasa bersama